This site is on its way to being renewed for another year.

I have pondered ending this site many a-times,
with all the social networking sites and an all time low on hits,
shutting this down has been marinating in my head for a long time.
Not to mention it costs money to run this.

But you know me,
I don’t give up easily.

So we’ll give this another shot.
See what else we can add to this thing.

Thanks to you too for always checking it out.
Don’t worry. This site has been sanitized for your protection.

Seriously. It’s on my disclaimer.

Don’t you ever wonder sometimes,
what is the point to all of this?

Everything?

Really?

Just when you think you are back on your feet,
another senseless things waits on its heels and hits you.

Is it just me?
Or I have no idea what I am talking about?

Yeah.
Probably.
Again.

If you really want to define it.

Music is what keeps me sane.
It is what keeps me going.
It is always in my head.
My life is a stew of rhythms, notes and beats.

You hit a sad note once in a while,
but you keep on playing.

You just, keep on playing.

What is it to you?

“Hey.
Didn’t you say you’re gonna update this site more often?”

“Yes, I did.”

“Well, where are they?”

“Uhm. I didn’t really say when.
Plus you should know by now that my disorder is that I’m a compulsive liar.
In fact I’m lying to you right now.”

Gimme a break. I’m always on drugs since the surgery. And I’m also lazy.
You should know that by now too.

Yup.
A year older.

Thanks to my son for picking this at the store.
Even though he got pissed that there wasn’t any birthday balloons.
So he wrote B-Day.

I know I have neglected this website for far too long.
I have undergone so many things that have affected its progress as well.

Good thing I have twitter to help any updates on here somehow.
I will try better to update this as much as I can in the future.
I apologize for any cross posts that you may see
on my Twitter, Facebook, Limebooth, Youtube, Posterous, and…I forget what else I have out there.

but now I have to go..
So I’ll see you guys around.

And thanks for sticking around me throughout these years.

Ty

I’ve been a Microsoft Windows User for as long as I can remember.
Never really played much with a Mac.

So here’s a question,

If I was a Mac,
Why would you pick me?

Besides my quest for a great Music and Video Editing Software, why else should I consider it?
What don’t you like about it?
Greatest Annoyance?

I’m not necessarily buying one, just checking out all other options.
I want to grow.

I’m not in it for a Status Symbol.

Thanks.

I’m also starting to probably re-consider this site and move it somewhere else.

There are only two people reading this site and one of them is writing this as I write this.
Did that make sense?
Of course not.

This is what happens when I am heavily medicated and under a lot of stress.
And when I say stress I mean, drugs.
And Cake.

My son asked me the other day,

“Dad, when the soldiers kill each other in battle,
how does that solve their problem?”

I didn’t know how to answer him.
How would you handle that?

I am open to suggestions.

I miss my family and friends in Ottawa.
And this.

I miss its taste. Very much.
Come.
I’ll take you there.

I was going thru my blog archives
And found some on my drafts folder that never saw the light of day.

Whenever I am not happy with what I wrote
Or whenever I can’t find any sense in it,
I leave them there and wait until my head clears up a bit and continue on.

Most of the time my head never does,
so they stay there quite permanently

One particular post I was trying to write was about a year ago
around February, when I auditioned to join a church choir.

This is going to be long, so consider yourself warned.

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