I was going to write something “religious” about Easter,
but I got into thinking.

How can I write something about “praises”,
when I have hatred in my heart?

Is it hypocritical of me to say what I feel about my religion,
when I spend so much time and effort, hating my fellow men?

Do I have to pretend to spread the good news, through what I write,
when I wish for everyone who pisses me off, to burn in hell?

Who am I to talk about how great it is to worship the living God,
when I spend half of my time in church, thinking about other things?
Or if I go at all?

When I can’t even pray,
like how I used to pray?

When I can’t talk to Him,
like I used to?
Or if I talk to Him at all?

Then I got into more thinking?

I realized that the hatred in my heart,
makes me human.

I realized that my complaints are being heard,
even though I complain that they weren’t.

I realized that, even though I am a Christian,
that doesn’t make me a Saint.

I realized that even though I haven’t talked to Him,
He kept His relationship with me.

I realized that He doesn’t care about my shortcomings.

I realized how much He has blessed me.

And I realized that He is God.
He doesn’t need us to make Himself a better God.
But He still stayed with us anyway.

But, why?
Why would He?
Why should He?

So, I spent most of Easter pondering about this,
and how I would wish I would get an answer.

I know, I wouldn’t understand it all,
but at least, something that would give me some peace of mind.

So, I turn to music.
It’s what comes natural, when emotions are high,
and thoughts are plenty.

So, I just kept noodling around,
letting the music talk.
When I started playing this one simple tune,
and I can’t stop playing it.

A song we used to sing back in High School.
It’s called “I Love you”.
I don’t even know who wrote it. (UPDATE: It was actually a song by Bro. Mike Lapid)

Then it hit me.
Actually, it was more like a “Listen up, Stupid!”

He was talking to me.
Or at least letting me understand.

And I hope, as I end this post,
that someone, somewhere would understand,
that Easter is really not about the Bunny.
Or the Eggs.
Or the Sweets.

Easter is Life.
It’s the one true “Christmas”.



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I LOVE YOU

I love you,
‘Cause that’s just what I am.
I could never turn away from you, and leave you all alone.
Yes, I love you.
I could never leave you all alone and leave you way behind.

Refrain 1:
Though you weigh no more than dust,
placed on a scale, you rise.
Though your worth is just as much as sand,
I love you just the same.
I am love, I am love.

Refrain 2:
Though your sins be dark as scarlet,
I will turn them white as snow.
Though your sins be red as crimson,
They mean nothing more to me.

For I made you and you’re meant for me,
for all eternity.
I have loved you, Yes I love you.
I’ll always will love you.

I love you,
‘Cause that’s just what I am.
I could never show you greater love than lay my life for you.
Yes, I love you.
What more proof do you ask?
Show me any love that’s greater than
the love I’ve shown to you.

(Repeat Refrains 1 & 2)

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Oh, and Happy Easter to everyone!