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At this point of my existence,
I have been presented with another situation
with regards to my wellness.

And I have been pondering on possible solutions to how I could remedy this quandary.

Sometimes, you come to a certain crossroad in your life,
when you really do not want to choose any path,
nor find any reason or will to go on.

And then…

Something
or someone
or somehow,
you get a clear perspective of how things are
and gives you enough reason to fight.

To go on.

Even for one last time.

I was talking to a co-worker today
and he gave me a little wisdom just by sharing some of his views.

“Life is full of setbacks.
It’s how we deal with them that makes us different.”

I really think highly of this person, and he sure did make a lot of sense.

But in all honesty, I could have said the exact same thing.
I could have reminded myself of that.

Because I read a similar lesson
coming from Dumbledore.
And Gandalf.

Sometimes, I’d rather have my life be based on true music,
rather than it being based on a true story.

I seem to feel the life,
the will,
the emotions
and worth,
through music instead.

Dreams do come true.
Yes.

You see it in movies.
You hear it in songs.
You might have known some people who are lucky enough to have theirs fulfilled.

But what they don’t really tell you,
is that Nightmares do too.

And when they do,
they really hurt.

Today, my kid asked me this question.

“Dad, why did you choose to have your job on computers?”

I answered, “Because I like it and it’s a good job.”

“Okay.” He replied.
“If you weren’t working with computers, what would you have been doing instead?”

“Well,” I paused.
“I always wanted to be a musician.”

“A Rock Star?” He beamed at me.

“Yeah! A Rock Star.” I answered as I laugh.

“Awesome!” He smiled.
“So, if you weren’t a Rock Star, what would you have been?”

I stopped and thought for a moment.
And I took another moment.
And another.

I actually have no answer.
I couldn’t think of anything else that I’d be doing.
I wanted to be a Musician.
A “Rock Star” if you please.

It’s all I ever wanted.
Not much of the glamour or the lifestyle.
Just the Music.
Me and Music.

I believe in the love for it.
The passion you feel when you hear it.
The inspirations that comes when you play it.
The beauty that makes you feel when you’re in tune with it.

As my son looks at me, waiting for an answer,
I said, “I think that’s it. I don’t want to be anything else.”

He continues on playing with his stuff.
I think he got his answer.

It may not make much sense to him right now,
but when the time comes,
I am sure that one advice I’ll be giving him
when he thinks of what he wants to be,
is to find his passion.
Find his dream.
Find his Love.

And not just follow it.
Not just to chase it.
But to Grab it by its face and own it.

By then, he may not have everything,
but at least he has his happiness.

You have to understand..

Just because everybody likes you
Doesn’t make you better than me.

Just because you are friends with the boss
Doesn’t mean you are the boss.

Just because you drive a fancy car
Doesn’t make you a better driver.

Just because your house is beautiful
Doesn’t mean it will be filled with love.

Just because you can go to a lot of places
Doesn’t make you a traveler.

Just because you look nice
Doesn’t mean you are clean.

Just because you have the perfect girl
Doesn’t mean she loves you.

Just because you have nice things
Doesn’t mean you are rich.

Just because you’re OK,
Doesn’t mean you’re not hurting.

Just because you are devout
Doesn’t make you holy.

Just because you’re never alone
Doesn’t mean you’re not lonely.

Just because you’re honest
Doesn’t make you truthful.

Just because you have patience
Doesn’t mean you have peace.

Just because you’re satisfied
Doesn’t mean you’re happy.

Just because you do Charity,
Doesn’t mean you are Generous.

Just because you have Hope
Doesn’t mean you don’t doubt

Just because you have Love,
Doesn’t mean you don’t Hate.

The world is always double sided.
Yes or No.
True or False.
Black or White
Good or Evil.

Just because you made a decision
Doesn’t mean you’re decided.

Either you choose for others.
Or you choose for yourself.

And just because I wrote this
Doesn’t mean I make sense.